I am Antinous. I am Osiris. I am Antinous the Justified.
I am the one who was lost and found himself.
I am the one who was drowned and breathed again.
I am the one whom Hapi took and Isis gave back again.
Where the red lotus bloomed, I have died,
And now I live again for ever.
I have not done the things which ought not to be done.
My heart has been weighed in the hall of Ma’at and pronounced pure.
Anubis has justified me. The forty-two judges have justified me.
Osiris has justified me and given me his crook and flail.
I have passed by the white cypress tree and the spring that flows beneath it.
Child of earth and heaven, I have drunk from the water of Memory,
And I know my true name, which is
ASKION KATASKION LIX TETRAX
DAMNAMENEUS AISIA ENDASION.
I have the favor of Persephone, the dread queen,
And with Hades’ blessing I walk in the groves of Elysium.
With the wings and the staff of Hermes,
The Messenger, the Guide of the Dead,
I come and go as I please.
Like a kid I have fallen into milk.
Like grapes I have been crushed and fermented and poured into wine.
Like a goat I have been torn apart and devoured
And discovered and assembled anew.
I have found myself and lost myself in the dance.
I bear the thyrsus of Dionysus and wear his ivy crown and leopard pelt.
I have ascended on high from the deepest depth.
I have vanquished the archons and mounted the heights
In the Boat of Millions of Years.
I have adorned Aquarius and the stars of the Eagle.
I have shone my light in healing and prophecy like Apollon.
He has given me his lyre that I may play for the Muses.
With Orion and his hounds I have hunted the heavens,
The earth, and the underworld. I am welcome in every place.
I have passed the seven gates of Ereshkigal
And returned to shine with the dawn.
I was in the tomb of Jesus and at the banquet of his consummation.
I have entered the domain of Hel and brought forth my bride Melinoe.
There is no place where I have not been welcomed
And no place where my star cannot guide.
I am Antinous Osiris the Justified, Antinous Hermes
The Guide, Antinous Dionysus and Antinous Apollon,
Child of earth and starry heaven,
Beautiful, just, benevolent.
(This was written for the rites held for Antinous at Many Gods West 2017, at the request of Jay Logan.)